i am so lonely..
Haha!!! My first post on my new blog, guess what just 3 hours ago...i had a fight with my parents and i mean a real fight with punches and kicks flying around...reason cause i...nvm...family matters are not meant to be spread out too much...My parents are really unreasonable, ground me from everything cause of just one thing, ground me from my phone, my games, my Mp3, my radio, pocket money, my everything, even something that is as important as my life, swimming...I feel sad, really really sad...Is not that I wanna keep things from them...Is just that I am not ready for the cat to be out of the bag...know what I know...But by the time, I am about to tell them, too late they know it from another person's big fat ugly mouth...Even in swimming training, they do not know the set, yet they still scold me for been slow during warm down, saying that "NO, I SEE THEY ALL SPRINTING" is like dammit, why can't they understand? They don't know about the set, so just SHUT UP...By the way that set was suppose to be 2 fast 1 easy...Scolding me for being slow in easy part...What the hell...No one understands me, not even my parents or myself...Some times I really feel like leaving this home...Just like the times in my previous school...I only feel anger and stress...trying to act happy is just a kind of painkiller that will cool me down...Just if no one have noticed...I am not as hot-tempered as last time anymore...I have been trying to do things right but it always gives me back the opposite effect...Sometimes when I do nothing, people regard me as LAZY, but when i do something, people regard me as KPO...I have been trying to train hard like someone advised by no one ever noticed...They only look at the bad sides and never the good sides...Sooner or later, Elson just like the old Nelson will be regard as dead...Or maybe Elson actually never exist...Who knows...